First of all I would just tell you im lazy to im not always gonna be updating and i have more downs then ups. Im 17, In a relationship, student.
I feel like I always want something and what i want no matter how expensive it is I'm never satisfy and I think as I grow older it only get worst. I need to learn I cant always have everything I want. I deal with ignorant people that i have no choice but to put a fake smile on. -.-. Why?! I HATE PEOPLE! ESPECIALLY IGNORANT ASS HUMANS! I know i can make it in school wise but no one understand the feeling i get when im inside LSH. its like so =/ actually its worst then that face but u get the point. Sometimes I feel like what if i dont succeed? I think ill just suicide and call it a life. And if i do go to college and what thats not my passion. I love shopping and clothes and all those designer for a REASON! I go to lv,burberry,chanel,balenciaga and ect websites for a reason. I look at the models and the style and the bags. Its a passion that no one ever will understand when i tell them i want a fashion career they all either say you wont make it or wont make much money. -.- Dont you think about it something more then money? A dream?A loving? I used to sketch dresses couple years back and couple days ago cleaning thru my closet made me realized I lost myself. I used to dream and put my all in what I want and i dont anymore. Why would i want to go to some regular college and pay for it and graduate making the amount I could without the degree and not happy with my job? Just been sick and blah lately and feel like IM DONE. literalli done with people and everything... Just wanna run away from humans send me to like mars or something!!!!! =)
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